I watch, read, and write a lot of sci-fi and supernatural horror. I also consider myself a very spiritual person. I've had some supernatural, unexplained experiences in my lifetime - some I might even attribute to a spiritual level of awareness, but nothing comes close to the supernatural feeling of creating a life- IN YOUR STOMACH. Haha. Incredible.
A couple nights ago I came home after work and the house was hot from the AC being off all day, so I was just wearing some shorts and a loose crop top. I was reading on the couch, when I felt Jocelyn really moving around. I looked down at my belly and I COULD SEE HER! It was so amazing that I put down my kindle and watched my stomach move with her elbows, hands, feet, and knees (and head?) for I don't know how long. When my husband came home for work I was still doing this - just lounging on the couch, still cracking myself up (or rather she was cracking me up) while I watched all of her in utero dance moves. So wonderfully bizarre. My lil person in there. Which made me think about dogs, and cats, and animals that have litters of babies. If one baby makes this much movement, I can only imagine all the movement of several lil babies, all dancing together like little magic jumping beans. I wonder if having twins feels anything like this? Or if mothers of multiples can distinguish and connect with their fetuses on a level to feel each separate person in there, distinctly.
I'm really starting to feel more and more connected to Jocelyn, I see now in retrospect, that perhaps I did have the maternal intuition after all, with my dream premonition of her having a tattoo of "female" on her stomach pretty early on (and perhaps the mustache she also had is my intuiting her sense of humor, and open gender identity, -as I am plan to raise her to like whatever color she wants (not choose to cover her in head to toe pink), and I want to emphasize the value of important women in history over Disney princesses). I have dreams about her telling me how much she wants to meet Holden and Zombie (our dogs) - and some, where she comes out and they cover her in kisses which makes her laugh like crazy. I also notice how when I'm awake and near our dogs or talking to them, I really feel her moving, like she wants to get out and play with them already! Haha, no interest yet in our cats, but I've noticed they have been extra cuddly around my belly. Especially my black cat Molly.
I haven't asked any of my tarot decks about Jocelyn yet, because I haven't really had any questions I felt were important to get advanced insight into yet. I could ask about how her birth will go, but the more I read, and the more I feel in tune with my body, the more I trust whatever will happen to happen, and that keeping a loving positive attitude about everything will be the most important for her, for me, and for Jason (though he's told me he's starting his hand workouts now to prepare for when I will be gripping them in a bone-crushing manner haha). And speaking of her birthday, chances are she will be a Libra, a perfect air sign to balance my husband's fire, and my earth. I can't wait to do her full star chart, and find out her moon and rising! A few years ago, when I had a couple's astrology session with a previous boss, she read our charts together and told us that we were going to have, "The Christ Child." All along, I thought that must have been our Zombie girl (afterall, she did come back from the dead with her journey of finally finding us). But like any parent wants to believe, I think that my Jocelyn girl is also destined to do some great things.